I'm going through a weird time in my life. I can't seem to land the simplest of jobs. School seems to be a struggle for me. I'm getting decent grades now but not with much ease. Yet, when I hear my classmates or my professors talk, the shit they say is so basic and nearly primitive. I consistently feel like I'm two steps ahead of most people yet I have nothing to prove for it. I've got an idea that maybe I'm supposed to take a risk to get to where I am supposed to go. Maybe I am destined for great things and that's why I struggle to simply be 'average.' With so much to not understand, the stress is almost unbearable especially on nights like tonight. I can just be so scared sometimes... I'll figure it out.
There's people who just aren't meant for this world. It's hard to notice them at first but after awhile you can tell who they are. There's a certain distance that they carry with them that most will never see. And when I say this, I assure you there is no reason to be afraid. I mean, we are young people filled with life, yet we're wasting it away like drones simply obeying what is already here for us. Does nobody else see anything wrong with that? Everybody talks about being an individual and being 'free' but when you take a moment to zoom out, everyone is the exact same. You included. Myself included. All of us. We're all afraid to take a risk that we can't back out of. All of us. Some of us just feel lost on the road of life way more often than they should. An emptiness remains. Those who aren't made for this world, aren't here to fall, but they are here to change the world. I'm close. I'm damn close.