thoughts.

maybe im more depressed than i let myself believe. maybe im not as happy as i thought i was. maybe im not as recovered as i thought i was. maybe im just fucking delusional. i mean, i dont have many friends but its not a big deal because i dont need many. but thats because i dont like most people and i mean how sad is that. i read some and i watch a lot of films these days but the loneliness had crept up on me much faster than i thought it ever could. i just wish i didnt feel so fucked up just being me ya know? i wish i didnt feel like such a damn creep all the time. i wish i was okay with who i was and who im becoming. but fuck it, guess thats life right now.